Terrible, Awful, please-never-happen-again Day…

…So I pretty much ate all my pent up emotions in Taco Bell earlier today. And what’s worse, even though I was so full I could have thrown up, the more I thought about all the crappiness of today, and from the past few weeks, the more I wanted to walk up to the counter and demand for the entire right side of the menu!

And I honestly believe I could have done it….

There just seems to be pressure all around: college, job, weight loss, dating….. (which involves too much for me to deal with. Especially if all they want to do is cause drama!)

GAH!ASLDKFJ;ASD ALKSJFIOWEN ,VMAISDFJQKENRF;IUH;ASDKFGN AL;KJD

***I need some kind of silver lining here~

So, I have this funny secret…

just about 100 notes later, in regard to my latest before and after face shots…. I’m completely sporting a black eye/bruised cheek in my ‘after’ pic. That’s why there’s a white blotch on the left side and it’s a bit darker. I’m kind of surprised no one said anything XD haha

Look again: http://mechanicsmiles.tumblr.com/post/20817746968/quick-face-comparison-its-so-weird-to-see-this

Confession 101! Haha

It happened again. I had to be REintroduced to someone I already knew because they didn’t recognize me….minus a bit of weight. Haha, wow, life is good! ~

As a matter of fact:

yeah, this lazy ass girl DID just walk for two entire hours! Take that! And right now I feel absolutely fantastic! In the morning I seriously doubt I’ll be able to move, but hey!

I can crawl….

An awkward benefit in weight loss…

….when a guy feels comfortable wrapping his arms around your stomach (which is completely exposed becasue you just bought your first bikini and wore it in public for the first time) and pulls you underwater with him. NO guy has EVER done this to me! I didn’t even know how to respond, you know, apart form the obvious hold your breath before going under.

It seems like such a simple action that I’m sure many people have experienced before, but this is a first for me….

Weight Loss Texting Buddy?

Anyone for it? I just need someone I can talk to that can help keep me motivated and hold me accountable to everything I promise myself I’m going to do, which I hope to do back!

I don’t care where you are in your weight loss journey or what your stats are, we can be complete polar opposites as long as we can motivate and inspire one another it doesn’t matter to me. **My only requests are that you live within the continental US and 17 or older please!~

If you’re interested, message me your:

• Name-
• Age
• ‘Pro Ana,’ ‘Fitspo,’ ‘Healthy,’ or whatever other label you want to claim (No judgement, just good to get out of the way)-
• Goal to Lose-
• Are You an Avid Texter- 
• Large Gaps of Time You CANNOT Text-

**Note, I’ll be on the road all day tomorrow so I’ll have to find my future Weixt Buddy tonight. So if I don’t get back to you soon don’t be offended! <3

And here it comes….

…so during the whole six months I’ve been on this weight loss extravaganza of mine, I don’t think I have EVER over eaten like I have just now. I feel so sick, bloated, and quite frankly, just plain disgusting. UGH!

In the past hour I’ve had:

• 12ish peanut butter crackers
• +6 cream cookies
• yogurt
• an ENTIRE can of corn
• 2 LARGE chunks of corn bread + butter
• 1 1/5 Peanut butter and honey sandwich

I realize this probably isn’t considered a ‘binge’ for a lot of people but for me and all in one sitting! I don’t know, I mean I heard there would be days like this, so maybe I’m being dramatic, but sitting here and just looking at this list it’s a bit scary. It was like the entire time I couldn’t stop.

Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better.